You don't care.
You don't care I have friends here, do you?
Of course not.
You don't know anything about my online life.
You don't know about the friends I've made.
And if you do, you don't know how close we get.
You never will.
You don't care about this place.
You don't care about my blog.
You don't care about dA.
You don't care about RES.
You don't care.
You never think about how I feel about everything.
You never ask why I stay on past when I should.
You don't realize why I do.
You never have.
You don't care about my charas.
Or my drawings.
Everything I do, you get mad at me for at some point.
I've been yelled at for drawing.
Listening to music.
Being online.
Reading.
Everything.
It's just not fair.
You don't know who these people are.
As far as you're concerned, they could be lying to me.
Or they could be robots.
Or someone trying to get info out of me.
They aren't.
Once you meet these people, there's something about them that says they're telling the truth.
You think me sneaking online is bad?
I could be doing worse, you know.
I could be out somewhere stealing something, or I could be a killer.
Would you rather that?
I can't show my emotions to you.
You'd say something about it to make it seem so stupid, when it really isn't.
Trying to explain why I'm depressed, angry, happy..
When I told you that time, about that..
You asked me about it, and said it in such a way it seemed less special.
Just stop.
Dad won't shut up about it.
He says it was really bad.
Yeahhh.
I want to smash something so bad right now.
He never seems to care.
And before I could finish and tell him that it wasn't just learning the lyrics in English, he cut me off and asked me if that was why I was online last night.
They weren't even remotely related.
He used to yell at me a lot for being on my DS past four thirty, too..
The only reason I was allowed to register is because I begged him.
Even then he only agreed so I could access my data on the new flipnote coming out. Yesterday, I asked him how long he was gonna be at my grandparents' so I could gage how much youtube access I had.
He told me not to get into anything I wasn't supposed to
He thinks I don't know that.
I don't do that stuff on youtube
It's like he expected me to get into some sort of extreme video I shouldn't be watching or something.
There are two files that I need to delete, and a few words that need to be taken out of the dictionary.
If those two files get seen, I'll get questions, and I won't want to answer.
No.
I quit.
I flipping uit.
I lose the computer for a day?
For that?
Seriously?
Oh my god. Just no.
I want to keep this updated.
-flips table-
I'll have to give Kayla access or something.
I flipping have a headache.
I can't tell them, they'll start ranting on me being online again!
They don't realize I've been up to one AM online before, and that this headache has nothing to do with it.
Oh my god. Just shut up about it already.
The way today is going, I'm not gonna get that paper signed..
/sad rage cry
Danggit.. I really want to go..
But yeah.. If one of these days there's a lot less text faces or they're written differently, then it's probably Kayla updating for me..
Dang.. I have to go. ;=;
Bye guys..
