So, I just had dinner.
Apparently, my brain has decided I really don't like knives anymore.
I don't know about butter knives though, all I had was a steak knife.
But as soon as I took it out of the drawer I got a kinda nervous, scared feeling and I didn't want anything to do with it.
I fell kinda sicky again too.
And even now, after I put the knife in the dishwasher I'm still nervous.
What the heck, brain.
/curls up in tiny ball
Why did that even happen I mean-
I don't get it. ;=;
It's literally out of nowhere. There's no reason at all.
-sigh-
I have to stop writing for now, but I still have more to say.
I haven't finished the entry yet, I'll do it once I get back.
Please allow me to contemplate last night's dream. uvu
One. Kayla half-kissed me.
That strikes me as highly uncalled for and... odd.. in a sense. It's also kinda disturbing.
Two. We go into a lake that turns you pale orange for some reason.
Not normal at all. Did I mention no-one cared, everyone thought it was cool?
Three. Kayla asks me to join them in the lake, and I refuse.
Somewhat normal.
Four. Then Hayden requests the same thing and I jump in without hesitation.
Ooookay.
Five. The lake somehow turns us into pokemon. Hayden is a shiny mew, I don't know what I was, and my sister and Kayla are lost from the dream.
...... Yeaaah okay.
Six. Everyone but Hayden and I are lost from the dream.
Seven. In the beginning of the dream, Hayden and I are talking.
Yeah, that's not normal at all. I don't get talked to often xD
/sits down with intense concentration look on face
HM.
Now to figure out what it means.
Uh.
Nevermind that.
This.
I don't know what to say to him.
Kayla's response:
Dude, he's ten, maybe a she, break they're heart and stomp on it.
They're ten, they'll get over it and it's not like you'll see him in person and talk to him much if he's off and on.
;=; I can't just do that.
It'll ruin the friendship.
I can't just throw it away.
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I don't know what to do..
I'll explain tomorrow, I have to go..
